作词 : Jonathon Quiles

作曲 : Jonathon Quiles

Lately, all I feel is pain

Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same

I wanna give up and I just feel stuck in a life that I know I cannot change

I'm really lonely and feel drained

Sometimes I feel like a mistake

I just sit and dwell in my trauma, my life's full of problems, I feel like I might break

Try to move on, but I just can't

Breakdown after breakdown

And, somedays, I wish I could run away just to escape and feel at ease even if it means one day

Where did my life go wrong?

I was a happy teen and now I'm in the dark

Who's sad as hell and always at a loss

No one could tell I'm drowning in my thoughts

I'm still lost tryna find purposе

After all these yеars, I'm still searching

Hope you forgive me for being a burden

Self-love is something that I'm still learning

And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine

'Cause nobody knows I'm struggling inside

Sorry if you see me cry

It's just I finally realized

It's been several years

Since I felt okay

I'm losing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds

I still feel depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive

There's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend

They came and went

Lately, I feel so depressed

Tried to get help, but I'm still a mess

I don't ever rest, I guess I'm stressed

Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck

Did I take my last breath?

Did I walk my last step?

I'm alive, but inside I am dead

Look, I lied, I'm not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck

I saw pictures of me in elementary

I don't remember teachers ever telling me

I'd be an adult who senses people's energy

Being an impact, attract souls who lack empathy

When I look back, my past brings back bad memories

Plus, it's so sad, I had to withstand everything

I felt my last ex thought, you stand next to me

You stabbed my back and that hurt me bad mentally

It definitely changed me, but I forgive you

I understand now that you had your own issues

Your fear of abandonment really convinced you

That you weren't enough of the love I would give you

I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you

And now I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to

Me or the love I would give you

Nobody knows what I've been through

It's been several years

Since I felt okay

I'm losing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds

I still feel depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive

There's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend

That came and went